Let me tell you

You are so Fucking Beautiful.
Every day I want, need, to just touch you.
Just at the thought of your longing eyes makes my bones itch and ache to be in your presence once again.
Physically, Mentally, Spiritually.

no one will ever see your Beauty like I do.
You think they will, but they won’t.
They think they will, but they won’t.
No soul will feel you’re Beauty like I do.
This isn’t about First Love or Last Love, this is our Love and only ours.
You are the finest form of divinity to me.
And that is so much for me to say because I adore so many for it is the only thing I know how to do.
None of them come close to my Heart in the way that you Have.
None of them ever will.

The many moments even from such early days I’d awake before you so I could just watch you sleep in pure amazement, for the Incredible Soul that I was beholding was mine to call my own.
Your lips sit so softly when you sleep, with a gentle curl as you dream.
And all I could ever do was Cry, for I had never seen such a creature who touched such inner feelings within me in any way like darling Michael.
I’d ache with tears as I would try to fathom to myself how much I Loved you.

And now I feel this Alone.
To feel so much and to have to feel it on my own is soul destroying, because nothing can substitute, and nothing ever will substitute.
When all I want to do is give you everything I’ve ever given, everything I’ve ever meant to do once again.

To somehow carry on with the knowledge that no one will ever Love me the same way ever again to me is an impossible task that I never see myself achieving.
No matter who tells me I will, no matter how many people over the years of existence have.
No matter how many new gestures are made, no matter how many words may catch my heart.
I know that I cannot live the life I would of.
The only life I will forever want to Live.

The Future will come inevitably, and it will bring much change for everyone,
But each day I can only hope,
That some day soon, you will Love me again.

As I Love you.


Let me tell you,
You have given me this forever ache in my Heart and Throat,
The ability to Love so deep, that without it living is impossible.
Something that no other will ever be able to do.
And that’s what makes you the most Beautiful person the world will ever see.